No, this isn't a column about the final episode of Breaking Bad. So, if you haven't seen it yet you can rest assured this space will be free of spoilers.
It is, however, an ending.
Effective Wednesday, January 1, I will be stepping down from my roles of Editor and Social Media Coordinator at CSR. I'll spare you the intimate details of why I came to this decision, but the primary reason behind it is pretty simple -- I just don't want to do it any more.
You've probably noticed it over the last few weeks as even I can admit that the quality of my work hasn't been up to the standard that you're accustomed to. I've never considered myself a good writer (I'm certainly no James Dator) but one thing I've always had going for myself was a passionate perspective on the topics I covered. With that spark no longer igniting my passion for writing about the Panthers it's become more like a chore and less like a hobby, and because I lack the "want to" to keep doing this I've decided that it's time for me to move on.
After going through several weeks of not even wanting to log in to the site, I came to the realization that nothing was going to change and the best course of action was to go quietly into the night, because quite frankly you deserve better. I'm no longer able to give you the quality* analysis that you're accustomed to (and are entitled to), so I feel that it's only fair to everyone that I not waste your time when I'm blatantly mailing it in.
* - I use the word quality very liberally here. Feel free to substitute the adjective of your choice.
As much as it hurts to admit, I should have done this sooner. I've thought about stepping down for quite some time now, but I'm known to be quite stubborn and I thought I could convince myself it was just a temporary speed bump I would eventually get over. As it turns out, I was wrong. I haven't been able to get over that hump even when the Panthers rolled off eight straight wins and brought excitement back to the fan base. Once I realized that I couldn't even enjoy writing when the team was winning, I knew it was time to hang it up.
Before you break out the party decorations I feel that I should express my gratitude to Jaxon, James and the rest of the Editorial Staff who have made my time here as enjoyable as it possibly could be. I would especially like to thank Jaxon for giving me this opportunity in the first place, because without him offering me a chance to do this I would have missed out on a lot of fun. James, thanks for inspiring me to be a better writer. You may not realize you were doing that when you published an article to the front page, but you were, and I'll always be grateful for it. My fellow editors and staff writers: thanks for always making CSR a fun place to talk Panthers football. And to the moderators: thanks, I guess. (I'm kidding guys ... you know I love you, right?)
I guess I should say something nice to all of you who have suffered through reading my ramblings for the last few years. All kidding aside, thank you for reading, because without you I would have never had any reason to do this. I truly appreciate all of you for being willing to pay attention to what I've had to say, even when all I wanted to do was talk about punters. Thanks for all the comments, recs, laughs and even insults that you've given me over the last few years -- I've enjoyed them all.
You'll probably notice my absence in the comment sections once my resignation is official, and that's because I'm taking a much needed break from here. I don't know when I'll be back, but I'm sure I'll find my way here again eventually. (Feel free to have a parade on standby for when I do return.)
I really have no idea how to close this, so I'm just going to stop writing and let that suffice. Thanks again to everyone, for everything.